i haven’t succeeded, the world will not burst into flames at my death, puppies will not be named after me – i have no staying power. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 10 days ago |
nighttime, the pain returns rippling mind effects disunity lust objects found like shower breeze crashing down on a beaten psyche; disjointed love turns evil with the night – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 2 months ago |
My playing fields were comprised of a black and white universe – cold/hot, light/dark, heaven/hell, right/wrong – this, my guide, my birthright. Something was buried in the back of my soul – the signs were all there but no one knew, no one could tell so when I eventually went over the edge, it was meant to be a lesson learned. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 3 months ago |
I’m feeling much better now that I’ve found my mind. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 3 months ago |
i got the fear deep inside breathing hard i run to avoid the glare the pain of the lights the stares intrude invade i stumble up the stairs avoid inquisitive eye contact the darker you are the harder you die and they don't never care – i need to rest – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 4 months ago |
they are a little more solid even in the exquisite nakedness of their existence and they glory in their reality and read music and dance poetry on the sidewalks and in the lavatories of bombed out buildings. we take their words and cup them in our hands and we take their lips and crush them to our selves and dream the dreams and think of sands and faraway places and wish for death and pray they see IT soon. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 4 months ago |
pictures of life grinding to a halt decorating walls movement in dead motion limbs askew mouths stretched wide in motionless scream. art as we see it – feeling it’s another story. so does art imitate life or does life imitate A—R—T and where does it end – on cold walls before disinterested observers? – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 4 months ago |
A smile cures all forms of sickness, yet behind many smiles lies a set of very sharp teeth, carnivorous and rarely satisfied. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 4 months ago |
i run from my dreams, romantic they are not. rather full of scream scenes, empty death masks, mutilated corpses, the walking dead, society in a mushroom. i run from my dreams and wake to pain without a god and without excuse – I will myself to move knowing i’m one step closer to death. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 5 months ago |
Hell, they almost broke me. I worked in the back with people whose names were Gomez and Garcia and who
could barely understand me. I unloaded sofas, washing machines, a cast iron stove for God’s sake. Nearly broke me. I looked forward to a cigarette break with a madman’s glee, and I was joined by the others, the cigarette the communal language. When I finally finished my community service, they gave me my paperwork to take back to court and on it they wrote
great worker, thanks and I felt more satisfaction out of that than nearly all of my poemsies I’ve ever had published. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 5 months ago |
i found out that a close friend had just experienced a terrible tragedy. her fiancé, not yet 40, had keeled over dead on the spot, no warning. i called her and she asked, if i am doing badly, can i call you to talk? i assured her that she could and she said, i might be hyperventilating or something. i told her that’s ok. i'll probably think it’s an obscene phone call and i'll have a good time with it! – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 5 months ago |
apparitions of stick people torment me, of skeletal phantoms walking in rain deathly dead stick arms upraised to the gods. i knew one such apparition once, cheated of life by a diseased society intent upon deprivation of body and soul, identity as we would have it. i am haunted at times by what could have been. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 5 months ago |
We are the people in cheap hotels and tenement housing walking down side alleys talking to ourselves.
We are the people the pushers the whores the crackheads the gunrunners the bangers the pimps the homeless the outlaws the crippled the freaks the damned. Drink to us my friends for we are the forgotten. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 5 months ago |
Orange fluff ball, Rocky is an 18-pound marvel of love, so fluffy, he looks like he’s 26 pounds. He scares the local dogs just by sitting and staring at them. Rocky’s there for me when I get home, purrs when he wants to, leads me to the food bowl when he needs to, licks me in an attempt to heal my wounds, loves cellophane, red ribbons, left over chicken. Rocky, my best friend, is my orange fluff ball, and I wish I could share him with the world. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 6 months ago |
Naming is power, you know. That's what they say at least. My parents exhausted universal power in first creating me and then in naming me. They created for me an identity whether I wanted one or not. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 6 months ago |
Strangers frighten me. They remind me of you. Blood spills into the tub. Cramped quarters. Essence of fire. And garlic. Sweaty palms and images of the Diva rock me. Is it too late? Is it? Strangers frighten me. I dance puppet steps killing me hundreds of times over and over; I have a sickness to battle with you always there waiting. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 6 months ago |
chain link heat, a little over whelming some times when the sweat runs down your body like so many open veins jagged and throbbing – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 6 months ago |
So little of what we observe is Actuality. Do we see/hear the words pouring forth? Are they Truth? I wish and hope but my future is predestined per my parents’ belief and that is denial and death, the deepest pits of hell,
the thorniest of crowns, no sympathy, simply guilt, pain, anguish and lament. Call me your Anti-Savior and I’ll take on your pain too. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 6 months ago |
You’re like a book I hate to read, a story I want to skip through to the end. You take my soul and blow me straight into hell. I’m high on wigged out poems, short shorts that don’t stop. Am I dead? I DON’T KNOW
WHAT’S REAL! What about you? – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 7 months ago |
I have to choose, lie down with my choices, make my efforts, try to get better, live to see my sickness not through crazed eyes, but through the eyes of a shared language –
reconstructed depths of wholeness. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 7 months ago |
There are two of me now, old and disfigured, new and disheveled. A crinkled, yellow newspaper balled up in the fireplace, spidery face, rotted jaw, sewn and resewn. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 7 months ago |
fuck ‘em all. i wear my pain proudly like a loud scarf around some Manhattan bitch’s neck and i hold the leash of the poodle otherwise known as Dead To The World proudly in front of me as it takes a shit on the lawn of city hall – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 7 months ago |
what society dictates, we consume, cattle gathering around learning devices called
television, mouths opening wider while addictive morsels of consumerism are violently jammed into us and we lose more
bits and pieces of our collective identity daily. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 8 months ago |
I allowed you to destroy me, my self-confidence, my ego, my identity as a human being and as a man. for years i was a shadow of my former self. the pain you caused was brutal and intense but i have a new life and a new incarnation and you’re hardly worth thinking about anymore and being free at last of your clutches, I have a new world to look forward to. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 8 months ago |
Indescribable. Met my match at long last. I can’t end it with grace and I can’t give a damn. We live this life as though we were already among the dead; perhaps we are. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 8 months ago |
woke up with blood on the pillow, blood on the sheets, blood on my breath and blood in my mouth and the coughing started again and i turned to spit at the trashcan and missed and i admired the new wall decoration as i grabbed a cigarette to start the bloody day. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 8 months ago |
I am my own power, my own home with blackened roses gaping at softened slashed easy chairs, furled requiems of silence, yet strength too -- of poetry, of the books, of the gods. I am my Own and I intend to be the keeper of My truth, the slayer of My dragons, the Exorcist of My demons. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 8 months ago |
There’s this space in our lives that we attempt to fill with more space and the nothingness grows larger while our lives get smaller, a fact we can’t seem to accept very well. So, we take walks and we work and
we go to movies and basketball games and church and we Exist in our nothing lives and when we die a speech is made and we are forgotten once again, only more permanently this time. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 10 months ago |
i want to hold her to me, take away her pain, fear, make her believe someone gives a shit. i want to stroke the nape of her soft downy neck, cover her eyes with my hand, feel her cheeks quiver beneath -- i want to know her, but like one wounded she won’t let them close. she’s afraid to live life at times she feels a feeling similar to one she had as a child but when it appears she pushes the plunger and it disappears. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 10 months ago |
as i said her nostrils flared like a white lion, i blinked and she was gone. what one imagines. i dream moldy words. at times she yawned, as i said that, and her nostrils flared most beautifully. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 10 months ago |
You cried out in your sleep last night, steel toe boots doing dances in your head. It’s raining now and no one cares. Palmetto trees stand guard outside. He died last night, actually at 7:45 this morning. Will you cry? Will you? – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 11 months ago |
angry, violent, bizarre, we’re obscene in our lust, oblivious in our pain. i’m a man driven by my passions. sometimes I desire normalcy but then my brain wakes up and i return to reality. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 12 months ago |
spent some time gittin juiced on the junk you know and the poems would come thick and black, coffeelike, a little bitter you know and when the pores started jiving and all it'd be time to git on down and groove, let the words flow forth, try not to suffocate, live one more day. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
we dream of peace and tranquility, the day when we no longer despair but our self-imposed angst cannot be avoided. we can't run. it won't go away. the noises i hear in my hell are very real and i'll continue to exist in an interested sort of anguish, looking for bloodstains on acid free sidewalks. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
we sweat through our doldrums somehow, sheer insane boredom; society can no longer focus and my poems keep drying up and blowing away. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I see things differently. Rocks look suspicious to me as do certain hubcaps. Paranoia seeps through my pores, it’s just a part of me. Truthfully, I don’t know what to say anymore. My body is a piece of art; I don’t care about external scars, it’s the internal ones I live with and Satan dances towards me. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
caffeine fixture, liquid buzz, kinda makes the juices curl inside and out like having a pair of powdery legs wrapped tightly around your neck – strong and just a little wicked – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
oh great, more Really Important People sitting down beside me with their damned mobile phones to screech in LOUD voices condos resale values, great new stock options, frequent flyer miles, who is fucking
whom… actually, i think the rest of us are being screwed by these social leeches but god they look good don’t they – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
We wake up, breathe, live life often against our wishes and our better judgement. We console ourselves by telling ourselves this is no fault of our own but that doesn’t take away the reality of the pain, the streaming dreams, the utter shock of life, the shattered pieces of survival. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Blank paper before me; fresh snow fall, tracks slowly appearing, my future mapped out, my life, my day. Minute by minute, laboriously, every nook, every
cranny exposed. This is my true life, I think while wondering what became of the person I used to be. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Which is worse? The horror of waking up alone or the horror of waking up next to someone else? – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Bukowski was wrong. these words don't matter. you pound them out and send them off and they're gone just like that and all you're left with is a blank screen staring you in the face. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I want the guilt hatred hostility shame violence perfectionism biases humanity to flee, jump off the Terminal Island bridge. How many times have I laid next to you in bed with my arms around you wanting to blow my brains out? My grave marks my preference, my erasure, my wholeness. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I want people to wail, gnash their teeth, beat each other with words when they read my poems, all guns death drugs despair, life as I know it and live it and want it to be. I want people to read my poetry and try not to puke, vomit, cry. Poetry exists to disturb, punish, torment—show what’s real, man. Shudder wild beauty, for this is a fantastic freakshow, ain’t my garden of flowers and love, pity, and grandeur. I don’t wish to kill poetry, but to blow it through the roof—til the last junkie’s dead, til the matrix has gotten us all, til we’ve hung overdoses on the edge, the words, the poem. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
we met shoe shopping and she asked me out. over drinks she said aren’t you going to kiss me? when i dumped her over the phone four months later, she told me i had been a lovely person to love. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Empty beer bottles, Crushed packets of Marlboro, Graffiti on stairwells, Blond stubble on heads stuffed with hate, Me, with my circumcised brown vision, Icy blood of undefined pedigree, I am marked for slaughter In the abattoir of the Gulag. I cower behind the Swastika Chained to my door. – Ashok Niyogi Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
They closed the transient 5th Avenue Motel and now where will they go? They came from all over to stay for a night or a month or whatever they could afford, however they can afford it – and now it’s gone, broken windows boarded up, chain link fence surrounding it like it’s a dog with scurvy. The transient hotel drained pale, pissing in an empty ashtray. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
There's a big hole in people, even the long legged ones, and they eat and eat because they don't want to die; at least they want to revel in their misery for one more day, and they look back at me with suspicious eyes and then they go back to their dead life and dream of peace and love and compassion, and I continue to stare at them in a blurred stupor. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
so there we are, golden drones droning in unison. this is the West man, the pinnacle of civilization. this is where it started man. Come visit my culture. come culture my vision. we all own Automobiles here too. 87 greyhounds died in a fire today. someone lost some bucks. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Oh God, don’t you want us to live, to stop killing ourselves? Will they come to see me when I die? Which begs the question, what about now? They say you need other people in your life, but do they need you? Do they? – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
bonds are formed, death with the dead, those with no hope, the despair written in their eyes selling bit & pieces of shit called food for an extra sheet to put over their shivering bodies – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
The day began simply enough, cigarette in hand, coffee, black and bitter, wadded up newspaper, and after I got out of bed You were there too, and you wanted to debate the meaning of existence, but I couldn’t at that moment Outside, the birds sang to each other, words of wisdom, clouds of the finest smoke, a mob of blue jays descended on the bird feeder, the light still peachy If there are lessons to be Learned and gauntlets run, If you remain holy, The seed will be taken right from your hand. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
you look your woman in the eye and kill her by telling her the truth or you turn away and let her see what she wants. i try not to shake too much when i turn the lights out and the sobbing begins – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
when they look at me and ask how could you i want to tell them how fucking easy it is you just need a little
sickness in the head and an i don’t give a shit attitude – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i’ve been reading poems by notable poets about cows * sheep * pigeons * fish * deer & the like & honestly it makes me ill. i write about what i know: big cities, street gangs, the homeless, food stamps, death
& suicide & i wonder who reads this boring crap, who gets inspired? I want it hard edged, baby, poems on razorblades cutting through skin, tendons, even bones, poems that make the blood flow & run deep in real rivers of life. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Bronchial fix, lung lining expanding again, pounding holes, stabbing me in the back, bacterial traitor, wheezing breath from me, giving me the wonderful
opportunity to take panting lessons from Rover. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
They’re telling me I need to change my appearance; I may look unnecessarily menacing to people. That it’s the shaved head, beard, black leather jacket, black t-shirt decorated with blood, black jeans, black Doc boots. Now I’m supposed to turn into some preppy punk, internalize any appearances of aggression, regress to high school when I underwent the same BS and all this to avoid inviting unnecessary potential hostility and confrontations. What they seem to ignore is if this is true, it doesn’t bother me one damn bit. I’m happy to kick the shit out of anyone who doesn’t like my jacket. Then again, maybe that’s the attitude they’re trying to eliminate…. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I woke last night from a nightmare in which I saw a malignant society of pathological liars racked with insecurities, consumed by guilt, screaming for violence and I noticed I was sweating most profusely as I thanked the heavens above that it was only a dream before turning on the light to get a cigarette. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
on sale today we have Doubts, Insecurities, Depression and Guilt for reduced prices, in this section Self-Hatred, Suicidal Ideation and Anger. that section there has Betrayal, Inferiority, Hostility and Frustration, but in the back, the best … Confusion, Apathy, Paranoia, Irritation and the beloved Need-To-Kiss-Ass-At-Work all on sale for very, very low prices… – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
a beautiful girl spoke to me today thru little honey’d whispers dreaming icicles streams of words mouth moving saying much in little tones traveling passionately into distant lands far off hopes stranger’s arms a hoped-for death told her secret – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
What I mean to say is no, I don’t want her back, just words hanging like leaves from a tree limb, nothing can bring her back anyway; words wouldn’t build her
bit by bit, piece by piece, she’s gone, and there is strength in knowing that. Maybe the longing will ease. Maybe the seconds will lapse into minutes. I’m not Christ – I can’t raise the dead. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
the words on the paper im readin are blarin out at me loud an angrylike tellin me there's no end to the recession theres no jobs theres no peace theres no hope man an people wonder why i do what i do? an bums are bummin lights from me and babies are squintin up at me an my coffee is rupturing my gut bitterlike an i guess the world is kinda like the coffee sometimes – ill be suffering thru both tomorrow. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
It's had about a thousand lives in it, some brittle and cold, others quaint and lively. The wallpaper's peeling and the pipes are rusting. The shingles are breaking away, falling to ancient earth but the hearth still smells of warm breakfast, eggs sizzling in their beds,
toast crisp with strains of raspberry jam, griddlecakes
tanning themselves, milk being topped off. Somewhere there is a rumbling, a truck bearing gifts of furniture, a car with parents cooing to their young and calming the family pets as they speed on to their destination. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
She told me that a friend of hers had heard of me and
exclaimed “he’s disturbing to read.” now i like that –
“disturbing to read: -- like popping pills or pushing
the plunger down, like big knives and rusty razors.
i’m fucking disturbing – let me disturb you too – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
You can take it with you because objects don’t just disappear like some people do, intent to remind and to continue breaking, like china cups fragile hearts – Gretchen VanOstrand Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i’m sleeping next to no one or no thing except the mirror and the only thing i see in the room is the reflection of the person i despise the most – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
she had this inherent need to create a new identity for each and every occasion, to become someone different every day to mask the emptiness, the pain of true isolation. If you tried you could smell the death surrounding her; a dead soul is black regardless of what it may be wearing. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I am intoxicated with withdrawal, paranoia, anger and fear. I live for the moment of meeting eyes telling fortunes – they can’t tell mine and God does that drive them nuts. I confuse people, scare them; they can’t quite get a grasp on me. I just take my meds and pray to the gods for their souls. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I used to think bad dream it’ll surely go away if you wait long enough, better if you could start all over wearing just the birthday suit – but since, I’ve learned that’s out so instead go therapeutically to a lonely far-off place, shout “too much” twenty times, return & laugh hysterically and then breathe a silent thanks for sincere smiles, warm welcomes and adults consenting mutually… – Jim DeWitt Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
caffeine buzz liquid thrill, chills slowly going down kinda wicked 'n edgy like legs spread wide in razor wrapped dreams, like looking glass lust on lsd, like wigged out flesh of lightening fear, like fried out bits of lovers angst, i lust at you, i live for you, i want you here w/ me – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
not a day goes by when I am not thinking of you you are like an open field full of ocean waves – to run through and never get wet but almost. this is the way I want to go home in a place – where the curtains are sails – bulging go break the fence post the houses want to run away – Lisa Kucharski Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
one night i saw the black widow crawling on my bed and the fear coursing through my veins felt like the best kind of hell – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i'm still waiting for someone to kick in the groove wake us up get the juices flowing and you know the shit gets more stale a little more square every day and we're diggin our own grave jumpin in head first and still we cry out for leaders to take us away start the groove over but the tunes are the same doesn't really matter where you start. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
sweat streaming killing hard in over kill i wake up screaming . there’s nothing to be done but go at it again – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
anyway i saw it coming from the rooftops. they said the second coming was heading our way tomorrow’s world today force fed to us in a tobacco colored spoon keep us entertained – content - oppressed. we prayed, friend, and they brought it down. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
dancing with death when he whispers in your ear is a very erotic moment in a man’s life and it may not have
happened yet for me but he’s sent his assistants many times to try me out. we’ve all been failures much to death’s disappointment – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i always like trying to catch a bus in a new city wondering how will i know which one to take and simply deciding this one as it pulls up and looking at the natives looking at me and getting off at the end wondering where the hell i am and how will i get back. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
it’s not funny nor humorous anymore, is it? this practical confine greasing our gills, gilding our lilies, suffocating on our common wreckage – Todd Kalinski Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
do you hate yourself i wonder?you can’t expect others to accept you until you’ve been able to accept yourself.
sometimes i think i can really feel the pain. i’ve been there, i live there. but if you can make it through, nothing will beat you. you know the madhouses are full of emotional suicides. let’s just take it day by day. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
DID YOU KNOW!?!
That all of human history can be
described entirely in terms of
the interaction between contractors
and middle-level management.
It’s all true
It’s impossible to lie in any language
and equally impossible to
tell the truth. – Sal Salasin Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
War is the true Nature of the world, a dog with matted fur
lapping eagerly at the bloody Nile, wagging its threadbare tail the entire time. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Ashes keep drifting onto my paper, charcoal snowflakes on a minefield of blanks, words bouncing around off each other uttering impotent images of sight sound terror life crying for recognition, narcissistic eunuchs reflecting my face, ruining the snowfield. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I was a thin kid, muscular and strong. I beat all of my friends in almost any athletic competition and routinely won races. Hell, I even played football with the boys and held my own. The day someone I loved made me question my once capable body was the day that my love-hate relationship began with myself and with diet culture. – Gretchen VanOstrand Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Love is an object that is difficult for me to sink myself into, to grasp and hold; it evades my touch and others sense this. I am termed cold, mean, irritable, overly serious many times over. I wish to walk arm in arm, hand in hand, without your fears pervading, without my feeling that others are staring; I wish to lose the fog and retain you, your essence, your radiance, your strength. Truthfully, I don’t know what to say to much anymore. Satan dances backwards for me, people are worried about my body, my art. I don’t give a shit about the external scars, it’s the internal ones I live with. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Fragments of poems are
Leaking out through the
Blood… If you listen closely,
You can hear the sounds of windows
closing, locking, being
sealed. I believe in you and yours
Do you Me and mine? – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
here with you and it just doesn't seem real sometimes and wanting to know you what you look like when I'm not with you what you think when you're in bed at night what made you cry the other day wanting to bury myself inside you and burrow into you can't get out never get out and become you live you be you – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
lately I’ve been feeling like I’ve been mellowing out a bit and at those times my wife lovely reassures me by saying, no, you’re still the same uptight bastard you’ve always been – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
We share this moment not through touch but our eyes, yours brilliant, shining, willing, wanting to know feel the pain, understand, mine dead to the world, a bleak history of empty files – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I look at the world like frost in a windowpane, confused, unseeing, and I wait for a solution which will never come.I see the world through eyes glazed over searching for relief from the ungodly pain. fuck the stigma. I just want normalcy. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
there are no fucking miracles aside from the fact that i’m still alive and far too many other people are too - why in the world people aren’t throwing themselves off bridges in droves i’ll never know – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
normalcy?
an answer to a crossword puzzle question
my body bears the strain of a suicide wannabe
the look in my eye turns people away
humanity frightens so easily that the words bubble to the top of the lobotomized – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Outside, the birds sang to each other, words of wisdom, clouds of the finest smoke, a mob of blue jays descended on the bird feeder, the light still peachy.
If there are lessons to be Learned and gauntlets run, If you remain holy, The seed will be taken right from your hand. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
This was how I learned
Eternity
all foes gone
Just me here now
And free to vary – Sheila E. Murphy Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Night is an abyss at the edge of a footstep, raining anvils in a mercury-retrograde imagination needing chemicals.
Fog is a curtain of anticipation. When lifted our way is lit by stars on a high dose of infinity. – Belinda Subraman Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
pound for pound, the best one of the bunch, a fighter, scratcher, pit bull, she can nail ‘em to the floor in one second flat, her body’s beautiful, but her mind’s a work
of art, whirling madly, twisting and turning, she’s a REAL woman and she won’t let you forget it – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
News has warped us now to what we thought our parents were. Our flags wave backwards in a non-directional wind force-fanning our irrationality and silent warmth that resists captivity or even calm. – Belinda Subraman Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
reality is often little more than a mirror reflecting visions made of ice and steel
cold permanent and carefully contrived. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
violence is so american
violence is pretty girls
guns ‘n danger
rape, murder, ‘n mayhem
tv
above all
eats us up
‘n
spits
us out
tells us lies
we willingly believe – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Language doesn’t do it justice, the body intact yet ready for
rebirth
The landscape of flowers and secrets left untold. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Stop!
let me go back
because the sparkling frost
covers the yard
and now
your last stop on Earth
is frozen – Gretchen VanOstrand Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Some are born to greatness
and some have greatness thrust
upon them for blowing off the
hands and feet of Nicaraguan
coffee harvesters.
The rest of us are
forced to work.
It’s amusing but
nothing logical or
scientific. – Sal Salasin Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
We wake up, breathe, live life, often against our wishes and our better judgement. We console ourselves by telling ourselves this is no fault of our own but that doesn’t take away the reality of the pain, the streaming dreams, the utter shock of life, the shattered pieces of survival. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
If I killed myself now would I make the papers
would anyone care
I already know the answer to that
besides it’s irrelevant – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Factories find work so meaningless
they dream of being torn down
even before they’re built. – Antler Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
well it’s almost noon and i've done nothing all day, all my great plans shot to hell, of getting up at 7 and writing 3 new poems 1 new story 5 letters of sending out submissions to 4 new magazines and making several phone calls all by noon – so i'll just keep drinking coffee and reading from the stack of books on my kitchen table and maybe i'll go catch a flick and maybe just maybe i'll get half as much done tomorrow. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
today is a good day for murder love hatred sex violence drugs revisionist attitudes anarchy of the sense letters and the like teatime exists in the MinD snarling underground day addiction – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
she said
i want you to
meet him
you'll like him
really
yeah
i thought
like car crash
broken glass
rusty razored underwear
barbed wire cheer
acid fear
like walking down
normandie
naked
nightly
like tiger claws 'n
earthquake falls
i'll
really relish meeting 'm. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
she wants to to be loved for a few hours at least. I look away, people need peace. it’s raining hard outside; lives are breaking in the storm. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Winter is a long descent
Into hell, a daring
Kidnapper, on whose lips
Rest the word always.
Look upon it as the rains
Do, leafless trees blowing
Earthward like constraints,
Shackles of the soul. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
we’re a community full of signs, the
Billboard Generation, tell me you love
me and buy me a beer. is my breath
fresh enough? is love really love?
is death really death? i want to be
jealous but i’m an artist. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I lay in bed absorbing fear, collecting strength, enjoying the slumberous sounds of solitude. To perish without love, I think, is a tragedy worth knowing. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I head this man on t.v. saying ‘in order for God to be able to use someone they must first fear God.’ I have also heard that God is in everyone. This must be why so many people scare me. – Lisa Kucharski Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
People tend to get nervous when you stare at them. They are racked with enough insecurities as it is. They always look away, glance back quickly and look away again. Some part of them melts and as they attempt to gather themselves, their flesh forms puddles at their feet. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
In the space of two mere weeks, I have come to know the meaning of life. I won’t share it with you, because we all have to find our own meaning. Camus was right, though.
Sometimes, I feel just like Meursault. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
she dreams
dreams wrapped in
unknown skins.
sweat scented
covers are tossed
aside in her
urgency. she
dreams recklessly
of reckless
abandonment
in a dark,
dank world. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I long for things. I long for things I can’t begin to describe, but while I am affected chemically, I ultimately need to assume responsibility for my actions and if love counts
and life counts then I can’t be a sleepwalker. I have to choose, lie down with my choices, make my efforts, try to get better, live to see my illness, not through crazed eyes, but through the eyes of a shared language – reconstructed depths of wholeness.
– Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i am sometimes afraid of the loner in me and of what is inside you
your need to merge become one to see the world through another pair of eyes I'm afraid i need to retain my identity – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i drive 160 on the freeway in the hopes of a fiery escape my major x-mas wish and like everyone else i get shit life on a razor’s edge words that kill and guns that don’t – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
sometimes it’s the senseless feelings which overwhelm you, the despair and frustration which build to dangerous levels and the subsequent release, the cigarettes, alcohol, nameless fucks, nights spent in the drunk tank. the cats howling outside the window know this and they act accordingly. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
The thing about rights is they're not actually supposed to be voted on. That's why they're called rights. – Rachel Maddow Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
it’s not that i think sandals are for hippies and it’s not that i think they’re a west coast item only and it's not that I don't appreciate kind gifts. it’s just that when you wear sandals you have to clip your toenails. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
glazed eyes staring
stupid looking at
nothing and seeing
everything
born of
and into
ignorance
what society dictates
we consume
cattle gathering around
learning devices called
television – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Moods invent the man.
I am a creation of
turbulence, a rider of
an ongoing
merry-go-round. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I'll be damned if my family, uncles, cousins fought, bled, sacrificed all on foreign beaches to free millions of people being tortured and killed by insane genocidal fascists AS WELL AS trying to keep the rest of the world safe from these evil monsters, only to find some decades later, flags bearing Swastikas being planted in American soil, if not eventually American political buildings and agencies! – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I chose an eternity of this,
Like falling angels, the world disappeared.
Laughing into the fire, is it always like this?
Flesh and blood and the first kiss;
The first colours, the first kiss. – Robert Smith, The Cure Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I need my conscience to keep watch over me
To protect me from myself
So I can wear honesty like a crown on my head
When I walk into the promised land – Brendan Perry Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain,
the only thing that's real. – Trent Reznor Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
seeing is believing they say and if boundaries are limitless are we? or is existence twofold and doomed
before the sights are set and if so does God really weep
for humanity and must we continue to seek sustenance through escapism and do sporting events in all their microcosmic glory refute the tenets of nihilism or should we simply accept and wallow in our ignorance unbearable lightness of being creatures who feelwhat -- I don’t know – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
of course i have learned over the years that my fantasies are always better than reality and i leave it at that. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Poets speak truth when no one else can or will. That's why the hunger for poetry grows when the world grows dark. When repression grows, when people speak in whispers or not at all, they turn to poetry to find out what's going on. – Diane di Prima Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Now fear had begun, a rational response instead of insanity. – Philip K. Dick Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
some people never go crazy. what truly horrible lives they must lead. – Charles Bukowski Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
The few who are ballsy enough to actually live wind up in madhouses, tortured by actuality. We all wind up in the same place anyhow … food for unseeing worms. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
We look through the sights, squeeze the trigger and the toy soldiers go flying, dying hard but smiling in the process. The toy maker should be laughing the whole way to the bank but Nietzsche said he was dead too. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
when you despise yourself and everyone else in the world, you just give up, say fuck it, and pray the fuckers will accidentally press the big bomb buttons – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
That which can be asserted without evidence, can be dismissed without evidence. – Christopher Hitchens Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
why do they think that when you are occupied reading the L.A. Times or perhaps a fine novel that in reality you are dying of loneliness and in specific need of their company? – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i am mired
in a pathology
of contradictions;
Perfect paranoia is perfect awareness,
my son says . . .
& i have no trouble
believing it – Andrew Gettler Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Sure, I’ve written about women and sex and madhouses, just like Bukowski did, but I’ve also written about many other topics, often utilizing other stylistic methods in doing so. Bukowski would probably have been annoyed with the rambling tone of my poems in Cells. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Winter, and
You are the only
Possibilities in this
World. Paper, pen,
Teeth, bones, and skin,
The future is now.
How will you make
This work, snowflakes
Against the window,
Every ounce of pain
Like blood on my lips. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
Almond Blossom. if you don’t look closely at the rings of the branches, it could be by anyone. well, anyone who was among the greatest painters of the century: matisse, perhaps. anyone who had studied prints from the japanese. anyone who loved light, and living things.
anyone who believed in the rebirth of nature, the seasons of existence, the blossoming of the creative. – Gerald Locklin Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
If destiny will decide to topple my overgrown mesquite tree into the neighbor's yard, who knows.
When the gods act up, we don't ask why. We keep quiet. We wait. – Lisa Zaran Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
i am nothing but bits of paper, grains of sand pressed hot against hard flesh, campfires burning bright against the still night. i am man‑flesh human life walking ~ dreaming, twitching under the noonday sun. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
But in the end one needs more courage to live than to kill himself. – Albert Camus Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
we love and hate with equal madness – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
The apocalyptic aspects of horror, cyberpunk and surrealism, with a steady overtone of mental aberrations, are explored through the diverse arts of literature, music, film, art, comics and technology. -- In reference to the infamous, eclectic magazine, Cyber-Psychos AOD #8, 1999. – Anne Dyer Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
when it’s time to break down and you’re lying in bed fighting off the urge to scream, when you’re lying there shivering, it’s not the memories that keep you going. instead it’s the dreams and the cats blaring evil and godlike into the blankness. at times like this, it’s best just to sit back and let what is be. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
No one is asked whether they wish
To be born. Everyone is asked to die.
Life is comprised of the noisy silence
One makes of it. – Scott C. Holstad Famous Quote | added 1 year ago |
