You know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation...and that is called loving. Well, then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. It is your aversion that hurts, nothing else.
You must learn day by day, year by year to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens.
You ought to stick with true love for life. For, it doesn't pay to stick with hatred/untrue love. Besides, to hate is just to die slowly/prematurely. But, to truly love is just to live healthily/perpetually.
You say that love is nonsense....I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving one, by night or by day a long strain on one's nerves like toothache or rheumatism, not intolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength.
You will surely/eventually be remembered for any of these after your demise. You will surely/eventually be remembered either for love or hatred, peace or conflict, encouragement or discouragement, stinginess or generosity, kindness or cruelty. Now, it's up to you to decide any of the above instances which you will like to be remembered for after your demise. Anyway, as for me I will surely/eventually be remembered/celebrated globally as a great man/writer who shared all his God-given words of wisdom/insights/motivations/inspirations with the world. Yes of course, even the posterity ahead will surely/eventually remember me and celebrate me too as a great man/writer.
You're not average or a mediocre. Yes! you are above average or rather you're excellent. Besides, you're a unique combination of DNA that has never been known and will never be seen again in the world. Thus, do all you love to do most positively/uniquely/impactfully/passionately.